Friday, April 30, 2010
oh gosh i am just so tempted to turn atheist )):
why does everything never ever fall in place nicely omg :O :O
andddd what is the point of wishing hard for like divine intervention or some form of guidance or what to occur, when it doesn't happen in the end?! oh gosh D: things just never ever ever turn out the way i want it omg, NEVER D: sucks omg :O
and why give me the impression i just got something real good, and then take it all away again :O what is the point omg, you are so mean you know that? :O and why waste my effort, why make me fight so hard?!
which brings me back to my point haha, i should just... turn atheist and, i dunno, depend on myself? cos then my life would just depend purely on me and myself haha it makes more sense that way omg ):
but then again, the way life unfolds depends a lot on other people around you also ): and that is really hard to control omg, like who knows what will happen in future srsly )): oh gosh oh gosh this sucks )):
AND i hate selfish people who don't even take their loved ones into consideration ): especially when their selfishness gets in the way of other people's happiness ):
why don't you think about how i feel :O or if you're feeling nice you could even be pro-active and make me feel better ):
also, if you expect me to refrain from doing something because of XX reason then i think you should also be prepared to refrain from doing a similar type of thing because of the same XX reason as well. ):
AND i decided that in my next life i wanna be a guy cos guys get it better, except during ns of course, but other than that, life is much better for them man srsly ): females always have to freaking consider the family ): females cannot work for overly long working hours without their husbands complaining but males can do so and they expect their wives not to complain :O where is the fairness omg )):
omg i'm so angsty really haha all the events and incidents of the past week or so have been getting to me omg, all the selfish people (i really hope you're happy now), cold people, nasty people(why grill and grill and grill me?! whatever ok i have given up on you, i am officially over you alr! our paths are never gonna meet again i'm making sure of that), and yeahh all these pent-up things have just been building and building and omgggg yes i'm really super angsty now haha i should go sleep alr or i will end up blogging out one whole essay on all my big and little gripes ):
goodnight folks, i hope i don't chomp my pillow to bits or sth D:
ok wait, on a happier note, haha i shall blog about happy things this week :D cannot allow myself to develop toxic behaviour just like someone omg. it's detrimental to my well-being la :/ plusss i'm always a happy person deep down inside la just that some things just annoy the hell out of me omgggg D:
yeahh ok so, happy stuff! :D woots (:
okays for one, i love my driving lessons! :D and haha the driving instructor i always kena these few lessons is really super cute hahaha xD not the face haha duh but the things he says hahaha omggg so cute srsly!! :D damn funny la hahaha always comment abt uncles and aunties and suan ppl on the road haha :p andddd always say i don't eat enough haha and then he'll follow up by saying "tmr i bring a big loaf of bread for you k. just joking la you can't even makan while driving anw" and "ok let's drive to the prata shop now, let's get you a roti prata ok!" HAHA :p
and haha i loveeee slacking at home, watching tv and reading my novels haha xD it rocks srsly omg (: today i just watched a whole load of cartoons hehehe i watched dimbo the gift dragon, winnie the pooh and eloise! :D hehehe omggg i loveeee cartoons haha they're super cute pls omg (((((: makes me damn smiley and happy watching them woohoo (((:
and and i love cedele soup! :D :D yumz omg and so healthy somemore omggggg ((:
and okie haha i should really go sleep alr haha xD then maybe i'll be less angsty tmr (: yippee! :D
Sunday, April 25, 2010
okay so apparently, i'm not even allowed to show emotion anymore haha, all i'm supposed to do is look happy all the time even if i'm depressed/stressed/upset, whatever :O where is the f***ing logic omg :O think i'm some bubbles robot ah, i only know how to be bubbly is it?! :O freak srsly omg wtf wtf wtf :O it appears like some people prefer to pretend to look like i'm happy even when i'm not really :O faints
Saturday, April 24, 2010
yayy i just got the best ever piece of news yesterday hehe yayyy :D :D :D my dreams are coming true yayy haha happiness :D :D and well wth haha but it seems like not a single soul is truly sincerely happy for me with regard to this piece of news but whatever man what does it matter what you all think haha :O cos it's my life and it's my dream and now that i've reached this step, i'm all decided alr, and no matter what it takes, i'm still gonna do it, and i'm gonna choose it over and over and over again ((((:
and no one is going to stand in my way, i'm making sure of that (:
haha and omg since my mind is really all firmly made up alr i really don't see the point in going for anymore interviews oh gosh :O and who cares about cavities and gum disease and whatnot anymore haha :O
sians D: wasting my time only la ):
Saturday, April 17, 2010
omg i must blog about all my wonderful bday celebrations haha :D :D i was a really happy girl over the weekend la basically :D:D and i had a great week also yayy haha xD
yayy i love ns bloc leave haha! :D like last week was super nice omggg, had shing all to myself for the whole week ahahaha oops :p and thanks loads for pei-ing me while i mugged for my stupid german test k! (: haha or else i would srsly have fallen asleep haha D: and yayy for all the fun times during breaks haha xD and thanks for the interview mock-up also hahaha it was damn funny haha :D
anw yayy fri was a superrrrr nice day haha xD not just cos psc interview was over (that srsly takes a great load off my mind alr haha xD ) but also cos.... that's the day shing proposed hahaha YAY :D happiness haha ((((: and yayy so we're now engaged haha happy happy yayy my dearest shing darling :D :D
yayy hehe xD and saturday totally rocked too haha yayy celebrated my bday with shing in advance haha :D and it was a super perfect day haha really :D though like i went home superrrr full haha cos shing basically made sure i was damn well-fed for the whole day hahaha what with homecooked eggs for breakfast and din tai fung (YUMMY MY FAVE XIAO LONG BAO RESTAURANT :D ) and snacks during movie and this superrrr sumptious dinner (it was srsly too ex though ))): ) and haha thus i was bursting by the time i went home :p haha to avoid expounding too much on the foodie details like i always do, i shall just uh limit my words to a few sentences yayy! :D ok first and foremost, hahah shing you are such a great cook yayy i'm so glad! :D :p my daily dietary needs shall be very well taken care of in future right hahahahhaha just joking :p and yayy i felt very good and disciplined during lunch cos i didn't overeat yayy only ate loads of xiaolongbaos and veggie bao and mango pudding hehe yum! :D movie snack was pretty healthy too haha corn and sausage omg what a balanced diet yayy :D haha and and dinner at pu tien rocked yayy hehe i loved everything especially the stir-fried yam haha yayy shing you are sooo sweet to make sure there was my favourite type of food for dinner yayy :D :D and there was sharkfin and pomfret and bamboo clam in wine and pig's trotter and mee sua! :D yummy hehe i loved everything srsly :D haha kayy so yeahh that was how i pigged out for the whole day haha xD thanks for the humongous treat shing omg on top of the bday presents haha ((:
and haha we went to watch date night! :D it was HAHA damn funny omgggg srsly :D simply hilarious haha i think i was laughing all the way hehehe xD although i think it's really quite smart of them to kope ppl's reservation like that haha and if i ever get desperate in future i will just do that too hahaha pretend to be someone else and kope the table woohoo :p and the car-crash scene was damnnn comical also hahahhaa almost died laughing omggg xD
and at night we went to marina barrage! :D omg omg i can't believe there are so many foreign worker dorms in marina area omggg i srsly almost died of shock when i saw so many foreign workers on the bus :O anw, back to the point (: marina barrage is really pretty at night too! :D and oh i forgot to mention that shing and i went to marina barrage last last week too just that it was in the day time haha :D but ok anw, yeahh it's super pretty at night too haha cos can see the singapore skyline at night haha so prettyyyy :D and it's very cooling and everything haha and omg i can't believe so many ppl still go and fly kite at night haha omg (: and anw yayy i really like marina barrage hehe and yayy we had such a wonderful time there yayy so peaceful and tranquil and everything yayy ((:
and and and ahaha i know how to play arcade football alr hehe it's really quite fun omg if only i had more hand-eye coordination haha xD but well yayy must thank my pro shi fu haha :D :D and dearest we have to go play pool one day k teachhhh meeeee!!! :D :D :D hehe xD
yayy so that was my lovely saturday hehe thanks for everything shing! ((: gosh it rhymes haha :p but anw, yayy yeahh thanks for all the meticulous planning and all the effort and everything omggg i had a really great day srsly yay :D :D and i love the presents too yayy i'm using all of them now :D :D
and hehe on sunday i celebrated with my relatives yayy! :D so first we had lunch haha my mom cooked again yayy yummy hehe there was yam cake and salad and fried prawns and whipped potato yum (: hehe anddd jelly! :D then after that we played bingo and cheat haha and i totally won the whole gambling game woots i rock haha :p and then the cake came hehe yayy love it yayy it was a durian cake yum yum omg! :D crap i really can't stop piling on the fats hehe :p and yeahh pics are on fb haha xD i loveeee durian cakes srsly :D and love the design too yayy (: and oh omg my mom gave me such a lovely surprise haha she secretly invited shing over haha and YEAH omg i was really superrr surprised when i saw him haha thanks mom! :D :D and oh yeahh i need to blog abt my bday presents haha yayy :D new phone (nokia x6) from my mom and a damn cute mr men and little miss pouch, bracelet watch from my dad, angbaos from all the rest of my relatives, plus a cute envelope-shaped pouch and hello kitty from val and mel, and lipstick from auntie rebecca and chocs from auntie pat :D YAYY :D happyyy hehe :D so yupp omg that was a really fun-filled sunday yayy hehe :D
monday was spent mugging german and dreading 20th april cos it was the day of my test too :/ haha imagine that, someone dreading her own birthday haha sighh )): on the bright side i had ajisen ramen for dinner yum haha i tried scallop ramen yum it rocks haha it's my new fave next to crayfish ramen woohoo :D:D and i love how they are sooo generous with the scallop hehee i'm gonna order that everytime i go there until i get sick of it hahaha xD
and today, yupp birthday, cum TestDAF ): brilliant haha D: ok the test was not so brilliant by the way zzz cos the oral sucked big time and the worst thing is you can't use good grades in other sections to offset bad grades in others :/ soo zzzzz now all that's left to do is to pray hard haha ): but well on the bright side, the other sections were quite ok la so yayy :D erm as for oral, well haha xD let's hope they accept my points/ understand my weird oops-i-haven't-spoken-german-for-years accent/nervous stumblings ): OR how i said "22 hour" instead of "22 Uhr" so smart omg slap me now srsly D: D: i bet they're like thinking, hello are you confused between eng and german hahahaha shucks D: or how i suddenly sighed very loudly when i couldn't put my thoughts in german hahaha omggg i sure hope the tape recorder didn't catch that loud sigh oops :p ack haha but well overall, just cross fingers and hope for the best lorh D:
hahaha i haven't replied tags for a darn long time haha i swear i'll reply it soon when i'm free :D but now, off to birthday dinner with my parents at nydc YAYY :D
Thursday, April 08, 2010
i'm sure i'm majorly obsessed about this whole issue haha, cos i've had many sleepless nights cos of this haha, trying to imagine myself being there and all and ya i could spend like HOURS just lying in bed contemplating this whole matter omg i think i must really be going mad. ): and the latest proof of this is that i have just realised that "beaver" is "bear" with an extra "ve". haha seriously omg, who ever does this man omg, see haha i must be obsessed beyond hope alr haha :p ah faints i need to decide quickly omg cos time is running out!! )): kayy haha i think i have secretly already decided deep down in my heart haha i dunno why i'm wasting time thinking so much also, sighh guess i'm just scared of making the wrong choice haha darn omg it's really quite scary :/ but ya haha actually my heart has already been swayed to one side so why am i still dithering around and considering all these blahblah things for so long omg ):
i'm not scared. seriously. haha omg i should just be brave and go for it and quicklyyyy reply that offer letter (: Saturday, April 03, 2010
((((: yayy hee why do i find, over and over again, that we're always so telepathic hehe ((((((: <3
Thursday, April 01, 2010
hehe omg i must totally blog haha i haven't blogged for sooo super long omg ):
kayy first things first! (: i quit my job alr yayy! :D :D managed to quit one day before my stipulated last day too hehehe sooo happy omg ((: i asked my supervisor for early release and she agreed YAYY ((: good, then i won't be wasting my life packing files anymore (: zzz it was such a waste of time seriously ):
yayy (: but i'll miss the nice colleagues around though )): people like genia and lorinda! (: you both are my favourite colleagues ever haha thanks for being so sweet and nice and kind hehe ((: genia, thanks for giving me your staff discount haha, and more than that, for being a great lunch friend and being so nice to talk to (: lorinda, for being so nice and motherly hehe and always leaving little treats on my table for me haha (: like that giant spring roll and small mushroom bao haha (: now i see why everyone in the office calls you mommy haha xD i'll miss my other nice and funny colleagues like zack and jack too! ): haha and will miss having jack disturbing me all day and making retarded comments hehe that lousy guy :p like how he always threatens to leave little ball bearings on the floor on days when i'm wearing my giant heels hehe so terrible right :p and how he always comments on the colour of my dress zzz haha but he's quite funny la :p will miss nigel too haha, and charles ): they're both so wacky hehe esp charles haha he keeps accusing me of being a tree-killer haha cos i'm always shredding paper at the shredder :p too bad la haha all hr documents are confidential you know!! :p [though some of them weren't meant to be shredded haha they were meant to be filed hehhh but i happened to be pissed with my supervisor and didn't know where to file those too anw so.... yeahhh they ended up in the shredder lorhh too bad srsly that's what happens when you annoy me, you lousy supervisor :p ] and and and the courier guy haha! dunno what's his name haha but he always likes to pretend to flirt with me zzzz luckily pretending only haha zzz the funny guy :p the other day was the best la, i bumped into him at the main door and he was like "hey sweetie! where you going?" haha then when he knew i was going to the toilet, he was like "you need me to escort you or not! wait kena abducted or kidnapped then how!" hahaha omg faints srsly! aaand haha everytime he comes to deliver stuff he always goes "pizza delivery!" even when the package is sooo obviously not a pizza hahaha omggg see there are some funny retarded ppl working here HEH but yayy they make life fun yayy (:
ahhh will miss you people ): hehe lucky there's facebook! (:
omg haha ok must blog about lunch on my last day haha! it was omg srsly screwed up hehe but erm quite exciting also la haha xD kayy so at first i was supposed to go for lunch with this colleague, donald and my supervisor la! damn funny haha he insisted on having lunch with the hr people hehe! xD okays so yeah he planned to drive us to west coast macs to have lunch haha (: and i was like, omg yayy ok macs! (: happy happy haha xD then... a few mins after we hit the road, poof haha this traffic police on a motorbike stopped our car haha cos guess what! the lousy donald had an illegal exhaust fitted to his car or sth haha faints! :/ so omg, good job we had to follow behind the traffic police and then we ended up at some ayer rajah inspection centre where the ppl there proceeded to inspect the car! :/ omg first time i ever had to follow behind the traffic police haha, and hopefully it'd be the last :p and haha yeahh so my colleague kena fined 500 bucks haha oh mannnn next time i'm so going to check my exhaust when i buy a car hehe (:
ok yeahh so that took like, one hour :/ and i was like, dying of hunger and we were so far away from nice food places omg ): and haha while waiting for the car to be inspected, donald was teaching me the art of seduction 101 haha! :O unfortunately i didn't manage to pick it up haha, what to do i'm too decent alr :p hehehe cos we were all complaining that the inspection was taking so long and so he asked me to go pacify the policeman haha faints! "eh you go inside and talk to the policeman la go pacify him and use your charm or sth! " and i was like, "uh cannot la, i dunno how!" "aiya for you, all you have to do is just put your hand on his shoulder, can alr!" sureeee haha i'm sure it's so simple srsly haha! faints haha!
then after the inspection, we ended up driving back to office to eat zzz omg cos my supervisor was being the typical sucker for punctuality so yeahhhh omg :( faints, at first she sugggested dabao-ing food back to the office to eat :/ want to cry alr la, first i don't get my macs, then she suggests dabao-ing rice back to eat?! omg ): and haha along the way back i was listening to their convo about office politics haha and i conclude that this is indeed a damn freaking scary place to work in, and haha i'm so smart cos i could tell right from the start, and yeahh i'm so glad i'm not a permanent staff here hehe the amount of backstabbing that goes on here is so scary seriously ))): and like yeahh, it's amazing how the hunger for power makes people do really meannn stuff omgg it really makes me wonder about human nature haha seriously :/
but yeahh anw we ate at the foodbarn yayy haha i love the food there (: had some turkey avocado and cheese burrito ((((: damnnnn yummy omgg i think they have a branch at raffles place haha i'm so going to hunt it down heh (: the food rocks! ((: and i should totally learn how to make wraps and burritos so i can survive overseas next time (: they're yummy and healthy and economical yayy i could totally eat those stuff everyday and not get sian seriously (: ok maybe not la haha but you get the point (: and yeahh so that was my lunch haha the whole thing took 2 hours :/ which i was at least honest enough to write as "2 hr lunch" on my timesheet haha (:
and then after lunch i asked for early release! (: anw, i had already finished all the work i was supposed to do haha, see la i'm such a fast worker, and so yeahh lorh she agreed! (: YAYY ((:
then after work, i chionged down to funan to meet ducky dearest for dinner and snyo concert! (: hehh and cos i was so late, ducky dabao-ed dinner from qiji first haha yayy yam cake, soon kueh and popiah yayy yummy yum ((: and we took our dinner to esplanade to eat yayy it's quite a nice place to have a picnic i think (: so fun eating there together yayy we should do that again some time ducky dearest! (:
yayy then collected the tickets from neville didi's mother hehe and omg she still recognises me leh yayy haha (: she said i look exactly the same as 6 years ago haha, not bad eh :D maybe i'm the kind of girl who ages super slowly haha goodie :D then yayy we went to watch the concert (: and hehe crap we didn't go take the program booklet so like, omg throughout the whole concert we didn't know which piece they were playing haha crapps but like, yayy the whole concert was quite nice la (: and i was especially touched by the piece with the solo cellist haha i think his playing was quite beautiful really (: and like, his technique was damn pro too, playing all the super high notes almost all the way up to the end of the fingerboard omggg :O pro (: and hehe i have always loved deep sounds i dunno why haha, and i focus better on deep sounds than high-pitched sounds hehe ((: maybe that's why i like guy singers better than female ones heh! :p so yeahh anw that was my fave piece from the concert haha (: yayy then after intermission there was this long long piece, Berlioz's Symphonie Fantastique (: haha it was quite nice also la, though only for certain movements heh (: i liked the last few movements better hehe, prob cos of the deep sounds and stuff yeahh haha (: haha and omggg the guy next to ducky was seriously irritating omg he clapped damn loudly at the end of every movement you know omg??! where's the concert etiquette omg?!! :O i really buay tahan people who do that haha, it spoilts the entire mood of the piece lorh omg can't you people just freaking wait till the end of the whole piece then clap?! :O
kayy then after that went backstage to find neville didi haha and took a pic yayy but it's not with me haha (: aiyo really haven't seen didi for such a long time! ): and haha can you faster go join sso then i can go watch you and i won't feel so old in the crowd haha :p watching youth concerts makes me feel damn old, cos most of the audience members are sec school or jc students hehe :/
hehe but yayy it was a nice evening la really hehe i haven't watched a concert for soooo long )): though i wish i was a performer rather than an audience member hehe (: cos.. i dunno haha the feeling of performing on stage is really damn satisfying (: especially when you hear the sound of the applause and you know all your hard work and efforts are appreciated by the audience and they enjoyed your music ((: it's a really great feeling haha ((: though i doubt i'd ever get another chance to take to the stage again la haha, unless i join some musical group in uni (: ok maybe i will haha xD i like performing arts yayy haha they're so glam, especially strings! (: oops maybe i'm biased but i think string orchestras are the glammest type of performing arts around ((((: maybe next to dance la haha xD kayy shucks i should have joined strings back in jc also haiz but nvm la i don't regret joining harmoc anw haha cos at least i didn't have to lug my violin to sch every alternate day or sth yayy haha oh crap i'm so lazy :/
yayy so anw now it's back to resting at home, recuperating, and of course, mugging german! (: yayy actually i quite like studying german haha it's something that's really nice to mug (: am quite worried for my test though haha it's like 20 days away omg i'm so worried ))): and yayy ytd i went shopping with my mom and we bought some clothes yayy happy happy ((: love shopping and love buying clothes (: oops (: i need a new watch! ): preferably the metal bracelet kinda watch hehe (: but no time to go and buy argh ): and yayy today cookie dearest popped by my house to pick up prelim booklets yayy cookie is so cute srsly ((: and she gave me a cookie monster plushie yayy :D
yayy coookie dearest if you see this: JIAYOU MUGGING alright you can do it! (: 7 more months kayy jiayou and study hard! ((: love you muchly! (((: and yayy i'll try and visit you whenever i can (: maybe can uh have lunch in school when i drop by or sth :p
yayy okie i shall stop here (: long weekend ahead yayy! :D happy holy week everyone (:
